Mending (2016)

Shotgun Houses
My story leaves me wondering
am I digging my own grave?
Since I am my own hindrance
what’s the difference anyway?

I am hurting my own living
by making choices I never should choose.
But it’s a struggle with death outside my window
not to be in a hurry stealing time so I won’t loose.

Half-heartedly I doubt.
Half-heartedly I fight.
Half-heartedly I start over again.
Wholeheartedly.

Every time I run away
I run away
Every time I run away
I run away

I play but I’m not a gambler
I’m not like my father who lost his life.
I thrive by a wink and a handshake
so why would you offer your heart to mine?

I find peace in shotgun houses
I sleep in the middle I await the bang.
Life’s almost healing when death lies right beside me,
when I face losing everything every day.

Half-heartedly I doubt.
Half-heartedly I fight.
Half-heartedly I start over again.
Wholeheartedly

Every time I run away
I run away
Every time I run away
I run away
Every time I run away
I run away
Every time I run away
I run away

So what’s the truth then?
Flawless faces?
A man who denies me my every say?
It’s so confusing, I can win the battle
but he who threatens my life wins the war anyway.
In the end I guess death wins the war anyway.

Heroin
I fear the footsteps of your feet
keep me trapped at home.
Change the weight of your deceit
then I won’t be alone.

I can only focus on the sense of your skin
when I let you in.
Although you are too strong a heroin
never say this is the end.

A deeper love than you’ll ever know
though you’re the other part.
A peace a place you’ll never go
afraid to even start.

I can only focus on the sense of your skin
when I let you in.
Although you are too strong a heroin.
Misleading heart bleed my reason dry
seal the ties without compromise.
We share a love that only just survives.
It cannot live but it never dies.
It cannot live but it never dies.

It cannot live when it’s denied….

Old Man
I took a vow on the sunny road I’ll walk
on the sunny road I’ll talk to the people casting shadows there.
And your hand I will take if you will guide me to a path of joy
to a path that’s calm.

Darling you’re so young.
My love, alone, alone you walk.
You’ll get there in time.
My love, alone, alone you walk.
Until the end of time.
My love, alone, alone you walk.
I’ll help you loose your heartaches.

He was so old when he found her.
Brave to pursue her.
Old and his story took longer than one evening to tell.
Longer than one lifetime to understand.

Thrill me dear show me everything I fear
only you can make it clear why I shouldn’t be frightened.
Oh you heart I’ll protect if you will love me more than words can say
I’ll be here that day.

Darling you’re a fool.
My love, alone, alone you walk.
You still think dreams come true.
My love, alone, alone you walk.
Truth is they never do.
My love, alone, alone you walk.
I’ll help you when you wonder.

He was so old when he found her.
Brave to pursue her.
Old and his story took longer than one evening to tell.
Longer than one lifetime to understand.

The Ghost from the Past
You’re the ghost from the past
the only thing I fear.
You’re the only one who can tare my life apart.
You’re the ghost from the past.
and with one single word
you can make my lovers leave their love behind.

But do you really wanna get that on you conscience ghost?
Do you really wanna get that on your hands?
Do you really wanna get that on you conscience ghost?
Do you really wanna get that on your hands?

Every day, every night I never leave your sight
oh you haunt me with unceasing paranoia.
I am lost in your game
it will never be the same if you haunt me
no secrets will remain.

But do you really wanna get that on you conscience ghost?
Do you really wanna get that on your hands?
Do you really wanna get that on you conscience ghost?
Do you really wanna get that on your hands?

Mr. Recordman
I make white horses trot in time with my songs
I make all flowers bloom when I’m around.
So why am I blue?
baby I’m blue, blue for you.

I make the worst crying baby shut up
just let them listen to my sugar pop.
‘Cause that’s what I do,
that’s all I do, I do it for you.

So why don’t you shower me in silver and gold
why ain’t I rich as my daddy told me I would be?
I’m lonely poor and unfulfilled
Mr. Recordman can’t you see that I’m for real?
Mr. Recordman can you make me a deal,
or buy me a meal?

I make wounded soldiers legs grow out again
and all my enemies become my friends.
Only not you, you I can’t fool,
what can I do?
When a single mama really needs my help
I play and the dirty laundry does itself.
I’m just a giver, (She’s just a giver) caring forever, (forever)
I got a bad liver (A bad liver).

Won’t you shower me in silver and gold?
Please make me rich as my daddy told me I would be.
For all the times I play for free
Mr. Recordman, can’t you see that what you get is a steal?
Mr. Recordman, this old heart you can peel,
or make me – a deal?
I’m for real.
Buy me a meal?
Je parle francaise aussi
C’est comme ca.

Time Robber
Hush, keep your words in, close to the ending
I know you’re just a time robber.

On and on, I’m holding on
believing you’ll come through.
Why are you so doubtful in everything you do?
I am not demanding, just protective of my time.
Pick your side, crossover
don’t keep standing on the line.

Say what you want to my love will not continue
I know you’re just a time robber.
Cry all you need to compassion wont continue
I know you’re just a time robber.
Be less persistent I don’t have the patience
to listen to a sweet talker.
Hush, keep your words in, close to the ending
I know you’re just a time robber.

Hurt me now, hurt me somehow
I must enjoy the ride.
What am I to go through to have you by my side?
So afraid of falling you miss out on something real.
End your days as rover
forget your head and let your heart feel.

Say what you want to continue, continue, continue.
Run like you use to, continue, continue.
Make it easier for me to leave you, leave you, leave you
Say what you want to continue, continue, continue.

Say what you want to my love will not continue
I know you’re just a time robber.
Cry all you need to compassion wont continue
I know you’re just a time robber.
Be less persistent I don’t have the patience
to listen to a sweet talker.
Oh hush, keep your words in, close to the ending
I know you’re just a time robber

The Feather & The Rock
Darling go too far.
Go too far too soon.
Make a hasty move let romance sweep me away.
Darling make it hurt.
Just enough to feel.
Make me fall so hard I’ll never get up again.

I dream about your demons too
they whisper in my ears.
I dream that you would cry them out
and heal me through your tears.

What a lie.
What a try.
Facing truth now.
I give up now.

Oh so you’ve got feathers.
I am just a rock.
I’m so deeply lost in trying to tie down your wings.

I try to please your every need
to save you from yourself.
I love the sweet melancholy
you breathe in your every breath.

What a lie.
What a try.
Facing truth now.
I give up now.

For the Better
The sky looks dark and empty but full of light
I know you’re not up there.
For you there was no heaven and no afterlife
so I can’t place you anywhere.

How did you burn all the bridges in your life?
How did your heart get so bitter?
How can you face your own daughter between your lies
and say it’s all for the better for you to leave her?

Stories keep on changing the further we go,
secrets unfold.
Words on bits of paper turn up everywhere
still I can’t place you anywhere.

How did you burn all the bridges in your life?
How did your heart get so bitter?
How can you face your own daughter between your lies
and say it’s all for the better for you to leave her?

Your absence is unreal
I place you in my dreams.
With nothing else to give
I give my memory.
Although you weren’t saved
purely from your faith.
To live on in my mind
is no less divine.